The days are starting to be like before and I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be sad or finally happy that I'm not leeching on another person just to feel that I'm not a soul in fractions.
However I listened to your songs and found out about the things, the people that can make you truly whole.
Why do I have to insert myself if I'm the one asking for completion?
It seems contradictory to give all of my remaining parts just to find wholeness in nothingness, for I have not found myself for the last three months nor did I have you ever since three years ago.
When I floated on the lyrics you sang I realized that you also had your own problems and aspirations sailing a different course - away from my home and future destinations.
I see your smiles flashed to others more genuinely than to me.
From then on, I understood that no matter what you do you can't force people to fall, learn, or basically love you.
It wouldn't be real.
It wouldn't be right.
And perhaps that's what you keep teaching me after all these years managing to be an inch away from my grasp but now here yet we're living in a world mapped with different terrains and obscure forests that grew to set boundaries.
I asked myself if it was okay to love someone one-sidedly.
My answer is no.
No one should be subjected to that kind of toxicity.
No one should suffer without necessity.
I guess for now if love is real and bound to happen for any lonely soul in the planet then let it work its magic.
I'll be here waiting and living.
Without writing poems.
Without writing songs.
Without praying for them to look back.
Without asking them to remember or reciprocate.
I'll be here roaming free in my revival.
And you dear readers, should too.
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