I always, always feel alone that no matter how many people surrounds me, I still feel lonely. I may have friends, family, people to talk to but at the end of the day, it's just myself I'm with, the only person I can trust fully. I'm the only one who could understand myself. I'm strong yet fragile, loud yet silenced, smiling despite everything for I've always wanted to fix others' lives because i cant fix mine. I want to make a difference in helping other people avoid the pits I'm currently in, the pits so deep and there's no way out. I like the company of course, enjoy it while it lasts, but sometimes reality is pulling me back telling me there will be no one but me, no one can save me, so I'm trying to save others while no one notices that I'm drowning.