there's too much scarred on my body
my soul is too weak to defend it
I always smile in everybody
but no ones dare to look my pain in different side on me
i somehow wish that i want to be somebody
to feel what its like to be happy
no doubt, no whys and no maybe
there's so many reasons to live, the way it is
but here i am wishing my life to end like this
today i made mistake
too much hell not only for myself but also
in my whole life being
I'm so sorry for myself
and somehow i feel like i need to say condolence
because now i totally lost me.
Feel disgusted
feel pity
want to cry but no tears fallin
maybe i'm too weak
cause i let my own monster
to eat me
too much scarred for my body
somebody "will you please help me?"
i try, i'm trying, i tried to feel alive again
i don't want to be just S O M E B O D Y.
I don't want to live with doubts, whys and maybe
i just want to be happy.
please heal the scarred on my body.