she was happy, for having a friend, yet sad for it's just a word but can't be seen by their action.
she is happy for having a beautiful friend, yet sad because beautiful is not what she need, a friend is.
she was happy for having a friend that she can trust, yet sad cause it feels like she's not being trusted.
she was happy for having a friend that is nice, yet sad for she can't ask her to have fun by doing crazy things.
she was happy that she has a friend that she can talk to when something is coming that excites her, yet sad coz it feels like she's the only one who gets excited.
she was happy for having a friend that she can let her guards down, yet sad coz she's the only one who's being like that between the two of them.
she was sad for going away, yet happy because she find somebody else.
she was happy for her friend that finds another person whom she can get comfortable to be with, yet sad because she never does that to her.
now, she is happy even sometimes it hurts her for what happened.
now, she believes that sometimes letting go is much better than holding on.
sometimes holding on does more damage than letting go.