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Since We're Not

  • It has been a really long time since we haven't been "us"
  • I have finally realised that I'm actually gonna be fine.
  • After an endless circle of self loath,
  • I think spring has finally come to melt the cold you left.
  • I have stopped knocking on the door I know,
  • Is never gonna be answered.
  • I have finally put the ice cream back in the freezer,
  • which I let melt in hope of your return.
  • I no longer need you to eat my ice cream with.. 
  • You are the Sun to my Moon.
  • No longer because you gave me hope when I couldn't find it.
  • But because you have to set, in order for me to rise.
  • All this time I spent loathing myself for what I did to you.
  • And you just blindly used it for sympathy.
  • Thank you, for showing me exactly what I don't need.
  • I don't need the love of someone who doesn't believe in mine.
  • You are of the fire which gave me warmth,
  • But burnt out the moment it snowed.
  • I would have waited for you too, you know.
  • For you, a thousand times over.
  • But you, my love, don't deserve a single little bit of it.
  • Now, I don't hate you love.
  • I couldn't even if I tried. Even if I wanted to.
  • But taking responsibility for your life is like flying.
  • You feel inevitable, free and empowered.
  • I was a Magnificent Bird, whereas you; A mere Land Animal.
  • If me carrying the mountain of guilt over my shoulders,
  • Keeps you in shade forever, then so be it.
  • But I won't have you standing there not even accrediting my pain.
  • I can't just stand there crying the invisible tears,
  • Just because you hate me too much to come and help.
  • I will no longer let you caress my soul to smoothen yourself.
  • I will no more burn in an everlasting fire,
  • Just so you keep taking the credit of lighting it.
  • I will no longer be the thief who used to steal your memories from the past.
  • I will not have the urge to wish you a happy birthday.
  • I will no longer ponder on whether it was too late to love you.
  • Because even if it was, it's okay.
  • I can't let you keep my heart forever, love.
  • For it is me, that it needs to beat for.
  • I can't let you keep all my love anymore.
  • For I might have, by mistake, given you my share of it.
  • I will no longer be your sob story.
  • My story is tired of being shoved by you.
  • It needs a new Protagonist.
  • I recently decided to fill the vacancy myself.
  • But believe me love, you will never find anyone,
  • Who would willingly dig a hole in their soul, 
  • Just to treasure safely; a part of you.
  • Who would fight an inner War, every day,
  • Just to win the honour of loving you.
  • I would have gracefully done that for the rest of my life. But.
  • For you, not once more, ever.


~Thank you for staying, but you can leave now.