Sober

"You pulled me in

Kissed my forehead

Then pushed me in the bed

As our body became one

As I was looking at you

While you were still asleep

I told myself 'I can't leave this man.'

With the warm liquid that fell from my eye

Then you woke up

Looking for me

I'd like to say you missed me

But no, you were just sober

Once again, you pulled me in

Put your palm roughly in my cheeks

As you pushed me hard on the bed

Then began hurting me

After doing so, you would always say you're sorry

And again, I forgave you

Thinking you were just stressed

But love, you know that was not the only time you hurt me

There are times I wonder if you really love me

Then you whispered in my ear

Saying you do love me

As you held my hand and kissed me gently

My inner and outer self was all wounded

Thinking I could make it through

Though my heart was dying

Because you really didn't know how to love me when you're sober."

THANK YOU FOR READING! xoxo