Someday

Someday it is all going to make sense why it never worked between the two of us. All the endless "why's" and "what-if's" will finally come to an end and I will be able to start over again.

You see, I had to fill empty holes inside of me because you left me completely hanging. You dug these huge holes inside of me when you decided that we are over and you dug even deeper when you could not even make me understand why.

I had to know why because I knew we had a love that is so deep. So deep-that no one has been able to come between us no matter how hard they tried. We were inseparable. Together, we were one. And I had loved you as much as you have loved me. People saw that. People knew that.

And I thought ours will last. That it will not come to an end. But it did. And the most painful part of it, is that you were the one who ended it. And you could not even tell me why.

I had to know so I could understand why we had to let each other go. But all I ever got were those cold and blank stares of yours that used to be so warm and sweet all the time.

So I had to lose myself many times in attempt of finding acceptable if not the right reasons why a love like ours has to die. I tried to search for the truth that you have been hiding from me. I fell many times and you don't know how many sleepless night I have to endure because I could not stop thinking about you. And it hurt every single day because I could not find good reasons to forget you.

But I know someday I will finally be able to understand the things that I did not understand now. The truth will finally dawn on me and I will be able to set myself free. Free from the tight grip of our memories. Free from the endless thoughts of what could have been had it been you and me. Someday I will let go and it will not matter if I already knew what I need to know. Someday things will be clearer and I will finally see the light in the dark.

Someday.