Something I never could tell anyone.

"Hey, can I know how you are feeling inside right now?" She asked me.

Everything, I'm hurting a lot and no ones noticing. What should I do to make them notice? What should I do to make them understand me? The thing is that if they will know what I'm going through, they won't care. Just because I always have a smile on my face, doesn't mean I don't get hurt. And that when I'm alone, I don't cry. They don't have to judge me, they only have to see what I choose to show them. You see me? I do look so happy,right? Telling jokes, smiling, having a great time... But I'm hurt. I'm tired. Tired of all the drama.Mostly tired of not being good enough. Tired of life. But I don't want to look dramatic, weak and attention seeking, So I keep it all inside. Act like everything's perfect but cries at night. So everybody thinks I'm the happiest person they know. That I don't have any problems and that my life is perfect. But sometimes, when I say "I'm okay", I just want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say "I know you're not".

This was what I wanted to tell her. 

But, 

"No complicated feelings, just feeling good now. How about you?"

Was what I ended up telling her.