story one

FIRST LOVE (poem)

I - When I was young, during my teenage years,

     I thought that love is full of only happiness,

     no sadness and fears...

Because that's what I observed from the girls

around, where I lived.

That makes me feel so curious and hoping that I may also feel that kind of love that is seen in their face, so obvious.

II- When I was a full grown teenager,

Many boys courted me, they're so eager...

And then I met him, my uncle's friend,

And for the first time I felt this kind of feeling 

that I cannot even explained.

 My mind became restless,

All I wanted is to see him always...

And when I do, I feel in my heart that I have 

horses inside that race...

And whenever we talked to each other,

I feel like i'm floating in the air,

A butterfly in my tummy, that tickles my whole personality;

I felt so cold and I don't want anyone to hold.

I felt my cheeks is blushing,

like the street light that's flashing.

III- And then I came to realized and concluded

that this might be love and not the feeling of crush that my friends always reminded...

Ahhh, love, this is it,

and truly, happiness is what you get from it..

  I kept that secret feeling only to myself,

And just go with the flow of that happiness

all by myself...

IV- All I knew then, feeling that way is already enough in love,...

Seeing him everyday, talking to him

and feel your closeness to each other,

with his sweet and caring words, made me

not to wish for more and it doesn't matter.

  He also felt the same for me, that's what I believed,

And in my mind and in my heart, only his face and his name, that is engraved..

V- Days and months just passed, 

and a kind of love that for me will last...

My feeling for him never changed nor fade,

We're made for each other, 

a destiny that heaven made..

VI- I thought that happiness will lasts,

Until that day, when I felt that my consciousness seem to almost passed,

He's with other girl, holding hands while walking on the school ground,

as if they didn't mind those people around.

  I held on my tears,

but on my face, so obvious what I really feels..

And when i'm already alone, I felt so weak as if I have no bone,

I cried and cried, my heart is broken inside.

For me, he cheated me, he betrayed me and played on me, he broke me wholeheartedly.

 The pain I have became harder,

when I heard the truth about that matter,

that girl is his girlfriend, and me was just a friend.

  I told to myself, " I thought he also loves me, 

I thought he is in a relationship with me...,

and why did this happened to me all of a sudden?"...

VII- Then, I decided to ask my cousin closest to me, a little older than me...

To help me find the answer, and to find peace of mind for all reasons that I can gather.

  And only through her that I came to understand, 

that in love, two persons must have the same stand...

Both must know the real feeling they have for one another,

must have a verbal agreement together.

  Feelings is not enough basis to consider

especially when it is not been expressed and said by one to the other...

  What made you assumed and concluded

Should not define a relationship to be included...

VIII- Advices and reminders, gave me a clearer mind and eased the pain inside...

  My first experience I had in love,

thought me many things about the reality in love...

That it is not only composed of pure happiness,

but of more of pain and sadness...