It felt rushed and i wasn't ready then
I had to say the first thing that came to my mind
They said there was no right or wrong answer and yet the things i said, they were mistakes
Can you feel my heart?
It beats too quickly, not in excitement but in fear
Why was it so hard?
Everyone could do it and yet i couldn't
Was I designed like this?
I could hear everyone else talking
They don't care about what I say
And maybe that's why I'm so frightened
Maybe thats where I get my lack in confidence
I listen but they don't
They talk knowing I am
They shut their ears to the sound of my voice
And for a while, it hurts
Why can't they just listen?
At the end, I sit with all the thoughts going through my mind.
How I could have said the right words
How I could have not cared about them
And yet i did