We used to talk.
We used to burst into laughter like nobody cares.
We used to play Horror games whenever our terror teacher is not around.
And we would shout when a ghost appears on the screen.
You used to teach me things that I didn't understand
And I wouldn't need to ask you to do so.
Like you already know that I didn't get it.
You will start pointing those things in the board and explain it to me.
I will never forgot when you used to lend me your paper in exam.
You were such a kind person.
We used to bully each other.
We used to call each other playful names,
because were totally opposite on the outside.
You used to draw a person and your drawing doesn't look like a person but you would point and told me that it's me.
You draw a ball with a head.
I'm not a ball!
I would make a face and take it away from you and I would draw as well but I only draw a straight line and I told him that its him.
I would start laughing and you were always silent about that.
We used to said "It's you again" when we would meet.
We would say hellos.
We used to be cool.
We used to be close.
Now were not.
It ended the day we change seats.
We do it every quarter.
It was a coincidence.
That we became friends.
It ended when you started to ignore me.
It ended when our Barn Dance came.
When our eyes met, I felt the slow motion thing.
It was the first time you stared at me too long.
Maybe because of what I wear or maybe not.
And I don't think you really wanted to come because you only worn our PE shirt and simple pants.
Only then I realized you came because of that girl.
She was there, so you made it possible to come.
You like her.
I saw you dance with her with this sweet song playing in the background.
The moment I saw you staring at her like she is the only girl in the world.
It hurt me.
It break my heart.
I couldn't look at the both you for too long.
My bestfriend told me that you look cute together.
And I told her "They are."
I tried to change our topic and I was saying nonsensical words just to divert my attention.
But a mind and heart that contradicts is a much harder thing to do.
"Both of you are too good for each other." that it choked and pierced me uttering those words.
Like there's a needle in my throat.
You had her.
So I decided to stay away from you.
From that day onward I avoided you.
I have no place to stay in your heart because its already taken.
I don't want to ruin the both of you because of this stupid feelings that I had and so I hide it.
Days passed.
Months.
Year.
Your relationship with her still goes on until suddenly it was gone.
The moment I saw that girl with another man, I want to strangle her.
How could she?
I don't know the story but it looks like she used you.
She made you a rebound.
Someone told me that she really like the other guy not you.
You were such a kind man.
I felt pity for you.
You really liked her.
then in a blink, its over.
I wanted to confess my feelings that day.
You might not know, We might work.
But destiny stopped me.
You cannot expect me to rejoice because of that.
There's a chance why won't I grab it?
I don't think so.
I don't think I can even fill the gap.
I don't think I can be happy.
Everything's done.
No one can turn back the pages of life.
No one can return my feelings for you.
It's not the same anymore.
It's not the same as back then.
It's done.
It's the end of It.
[soon..]