Dreaming my life without her,
I tore my world apart,
The news hit me like a lightning bolt,
And I didn't knew what to do,
An emotional cyclone went through me,
Perplexed in my thoughts,
Perplexed in my memories,
What is the right thing to do,
What is the best thing to do,
Got no good theories,
She was going to leave me,
Eventually that would have happened,
It would be manageable eventually,
But the way the things are going,
And the pace at which it's happening,
I just can't bare it,
I just can't see you going away,
Taking my breath away,
You're the only reason I'm living,
What will I do after you,
He also left me,
You're also leaving me,
What will I do,
I got no one,
I'll turn into an orphan,
Mom why did this happened to you,
Ask God when you see him,
Why he gave you cancer,
Why he gave you so much pain in your life,
All you did was serving my father's family,
I won't gonna love anyone anymore,
I won't gonna hate anyone anymore,
No one, no one can take your place in my heart,
I can't bare this pain anymore,
I don't believe in God,
But you used to,
I never understood the concept of God,
But you used to,
After dad died,
You didn't believed God,
You were so happy,
But when you slightly started believing again,
You got cancer,
Why he do this to us,
Why he always takes away those whom I truly love,
Why he's so unjust,
Why he made this world the way it is,
How did you get cancer,
You smoked but that don't cause mouth cancer,
That causes lips, lungs or throat cancer,
But the amount you smoked was very less,
Then how,
You never did anyone's bad,
You never did always cared for everyone,
So why you,
Why are you getting so much pain,
The world is unjust,
We just have to bare it,
Or have to change it,
It's up to us,
How we think of the situation,
Determines whether we're winning or losing,
And as per my thoughts with so much pain,
So much agony in my heart,
With such a perplexing emotional cyclone in my heart,
I'll still not cry, because that won't solve anything,
I'll still try to be more practical,
And learn from our mistakes,
Both your's and mines,
And move on ahead with life,
Don't worry mom,
You've given birth to a warrior not a worrier,
And trust me I'll be okay,
If you want to leave me you can,
It's your Decision,
You have your life to live,
I'll manage somehow,
The way I did things,
I never required your help,
I never,
And I know you'll always be there with me,
And you also know I'll always keep loving you,
Your lovely son,
Sunny.
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