THE FINAL END...
It was mid July when it happened. When a part of me was shattered and broken....never to be joined again. Yeah it did pain a lot, it pained everynight a bit harder. When the night falls apart and the world goes to its sweet slumber near its dear ones.... my heart pains making me think that its almost my end. But when I wake up to the next day, I realize that I survived yet another day without her, without the constant sound of her ringing in my ear drums, without her texts, without those three words that she said a billion times in just 1 day.... believe me it’s hard, I wonder what’s making me survive without her, may be her memories. Yes....perhaps they are the only support for me right now. Every morning I wake up with a false hope that may be she has left that “Good morning Baby,...” message in my inbox followed by a kiss emoji. It was my habit to wake up every day with her good morning text. She often complained me of not to be able to wake up early morning and text her first, but how do I make her understand of how I really feel when the first thing I see in the morning use to be her text...
But now things changed. She is no longer a part of me; she is no longer the first one to fill my inbox or call logs... no longer do I get the chance to wake up with her good morning texts. I don’t know what we lacked in. We were the perfect couple, no fights, just pure love. The love which was more than any other thing that existed in this planet. But yes life happened, may be love left us and took her far away from my side. It wasn’t that she left me....it was me who asked her to leave as she said she was tired of being in this relationship. No, she didn’t find anyone, but its just that things somehow weren’t in our favor and that made us fall apart after a long time of 5 years. She however did try to get back in again, but who knew may be she would leave again and that time I wont be able to hold myself any longer. Its been 20 days without her and still it feels like anytime my phone will beep with her message, but I know it wont happen any longer. No longer will I be able to call her. No longer will she meet me and embrace me in her arms when I speak of my fears of a break up. No longer do I have the right to call her as mine. The sad thing is....it really happened... we were never the type of couple who would fight over petty issues and end up. Even in the serious of fights we were able to survive a break up. Say that we survived a break up several times...but may be this is the final end of us....the final end of the lovely relationship which gave me a bliss for a lifetime....
....
“Hi...”
She smiled a little as we met after a long time today. The same smile. The one for which I was crazy. The one I asked her not to show to others....
“Hmm...” I nodded as we stood at the corner of the mall...
“How is life?” she asked as I looked up at her.
I wished I could say that I was dying without her, but I didn’t...
“Fine...”
“Can we talk for a moment?” she said...
I couldn’t refuse and hence here we are seated at the ccd opposite to each other but none holding hands like last time. None sharing the intense eyelock we shared back then when we were together...
“Can we give us a final try?” she spoke up with her gaze fixed over the table...
Her eyes were still beautiful just like 5 years back when the instant thought of her made me smile the first time I saw her. I wanted to scream it out to her that yes we may. Afterall I am still hoocked on that same spot where we chose to change our paths. Its like we were walking together on the same road but the road brought us to a point where there were separate ways for both of us and in the middle there was the original path on which we were. She chose an another pathway while I promised to do the same. But sadly after she left I couldn’t take a step forward...
“We cant...” I said protesting against my heart...
She looked up at me in a state of shock...but I know well that she knew my answer from the time she asked this to me...
“Do you have someone else in your life?” she asked....
“No,...”
“Then don’t you love me anymore?” she asked...
I suppressed my pain that grew within me as I spoke out...
“Its just that we reached our final destination....its just that we are already over...” I said...
She nodded...
“You must move on rather than holding onto something that’s over...” I said...
“But....” she had tears shimmering in her eyes...
“Excuse me..”
I walked out. I walked out never to look back again.... I wished I could have wiped her tears but I know well that I already lost that right over her, it was important to close my door forcefully for her. It was important to walk away this time as this is what people call...
“THE FINAL END”
............and this was ours...