OK finally it is clear that it's truly a mistake. I accept it now. I lost in the game of self deceit. You can never change it, what you can do is to just accept it. But what kind of person I am to accept a mistake. The only thing I can do is to just forget it. One can forget which is far away but if it is alive and you are forced to live with it, in all aspects of your life, I wonder no one can do that. So what I can do is just acknowledge it and move on... Cause as some said Life Moves on What Comes May...
Life moves on what comes may, but the only point is what kind of life I am going to have???
I am not a saint to ignore what's happening and have that bliss and eternal feeling in my veins and soul. I am human, an average human being who is as vulnerable as any other species to this stupidity of the world.
I can't end this life because the very next morning this doesn't seem so serious while you will be working on your next mistake. So the point is what to do with the phase between regretting it and getting busy with another mistake.
The answer is always obvious, if you can confront the person who is responsible for, it will come out as anger, if not you'll end up crying without noise in your bed with blanket covering your head and replaying all the things that went wrong till that point as if adding extra spice to your new recipe. And it is also amazing that your brain works the best at recollecting everything which never happens in an exam hall...
What interests me in this whole drama is that why we always choose anger or depression in this phase. Why are we always using the same old methods when we want new trend in every aspect of life. I started writing this after crying a hell of times, piling up my brain with all disastrous of my life.
After crying all this time and cursing people for it, this is the only conclusion that is quite
realistic...
Enjoy your mistakes, laugh at your foolishness, because something big is going to come tomorrow, you need to face it... It also feels boring to cry all the time, try something new... Think out of the box... Only then you can enjoy the rest of the life...
Never be serious about your life, seriousness just makes you hot, which is not a good option with the present climate.
Just be cool with it. If you don't know what being cool means create your own version of it.
Never forget doing routine things are not going to give you success now.
Cause its already 2017 baby...
So just remember life moves on what comes may. But the way you are moving is what you have to decide on.