I'm no good.
If I can only just disappear.
Everything's perfect except that I am here.
I am treated less and sometimes invincible.
I'm different from what they expected
If only I can change.
If only its possible.
I've never yearned for anything more
Than wholehearted sincerity
Not their pity
Just a tiny bit care
Just for once, can they be fair?
Why do I look down at my feet?
And everyday felt humiliated
Just for the sake of chances
To think it was not "you" but "me"
and so I waited
Words were buried underground
And chunked up in my brain without a sound
But I was wrong
Again, its you
And again, I feel blue
That's the time I learn to doubt
And felt all people were shadows who tries to judge me by look
It should be a clean slate, every cranny, every nook
I learn not to trust
Avoidance is a must
First, I reserve my heart
For the worst
Is yet to come
I should be ready
And steady
Before I crumble down.