You're alone again. it was happy to see you smile last day. what happen? what about leaving?. i though it would be forever. what happen?
the first day i see you really smile not a fake that you always did was great and i really thought that it would be the greatest things happen to you. i thought it would be permanent. what happen that it took it temporary? what did you do? what mistakes have you done? i remember how much you love her, i remember that day i hear you talk to her and tell her that you will do all the things what ever it cost, you were always there for her. i still remember that you leave me behind just to come with her. i still remember that day you hate me just because i tell her something hurts. yes i remember all that you've done for her and remember that you forgot me. i can still remember those laugh that you did with her, it was the laugh that i finally found in you. i remember that you tell me she was a new beginning for you, you did tell that because of her every things change. Yes because of love it change. because of her you've changed that way you look in me, the way you look in us, the way you look to your friends. she meant more important to you, yes she did. i can still remember every moments i see the happiness in your eyes, the real happiness of not being alone. happiness that can't be forgotten. Yes of course i think of it, i think that you really need her, i think that she was your world, i think that she was every thing to you. but now i still remember your cry. You did your worst cry ever, in front of me. you tell me everything that happen. maybe i must laugh but i didn't. It won't make me comfortable to see your fake smile again. those jokes that you were the only one who try to laugh, i know your just doing it to make your self happy, but hell i know you can't. when that time someone tell me she leave you, i can try to laugh but when i see your eyes i know you cry. every night you can't sleep, thinking of her? right? well FUCK bro. she didn't come in your life just to break you, just only to hurt you. please don't ever hurt yourself just because of her. she came to make you feel love, she came to make you at least happy for a temporary time, make you feel every moments that didn't feel when your alone, she came to give you knowledge about love, to make you confuse of making decision, to make you smart in doing everything for her, make you responsible to do your responsibility for her. Yes she came to make you cry. at least you realize that if she was the best maybe there will be someone that best than her. at least you realize that there is no permanent, at least you realize that she's not the right girl for you, at least you realize that you were strong. you realize that she was the one who give up and not you. at least right.?
That was the one that i'm telling myself.