The world in me

Have I told you that there is a world that recides in me? 

There is... and its killing deep within, pulling me along my roots.

I forgot who I really am. I lost myself in that world in me.

Its as if I broke into those different characters.

Each of which has a different story to tell. Each of which has an identity.

Like two opposites find it difficult to live together, these in my head quarrel amongst themselves.

Its not me anymore.

Im being controlled. Controlled by my broken pieces.

Its getting worse each day. I cant handle it.

They wouldnt listen to me. They insist to get out of my head.

What if I listened to them?

I listened to them, because I had no other choice to escape from that hell they created in my head.

One of them would come out each time.

What happened?

I dont know. I wasnt there. They locked me in a cage in their world---- in my head.

One after the other are taking turns.

Now, i am feeling helpless.

Im scared I'll lose myself, my family and my love. Because I know that they wouldnt understand. 

Why do I feel this heaviness in my head and numbness in my heart?

Did something happen out there?

I came out. There is nobody around me. I am isolated. I lost everything.

Now, they are screaming. They want to escape. I cant let them. They will kill my parents. They will take away everything from me.

What is the way out of here?

Only one.

Death.

If only I'll kill myself will I be able to save my family. If only I'll kill myself will I be able to kill those living in me. If only I'll kill myself will I find my peace....