"Your absence haunts me like a silent eerie night where I find places to hide. I don’t want you to be here near me but at least we can be together this way. A few feelings were finally on their route to reach their predestined destination this time all over again"
-Shina_AB
Lost amidst a few minimal memories I pulled out those crisp pages of tales scribbled in them, once again. The weather outside was changing by then. The scintillating sunrays vanished amidst some dark clouds and me back then sat flipping through those diary pages which someday spoke of your existence in my life.
Life has always been something dubious since you were gone. The more I tried to let you be a forgotten dream the more near and closer you appeared to me. I was sure that the stature of happy people in my life was short. I disenthral my heart to let it fly, but no matter how hard I wish for it to fly somewhere else it just lands up near you. The cold you pay no heed to it, and thus, covered with bruises it returns back at dusk. I wanted it to stop all of a sudden, just like a breath stops someday without a moment to plan, you stopped this somewhat in the same way and damn! I so wish it was something easy for me too.
I was always aspectabund in front of you. You could just take a slight peek at me and I could have shown you everything. But maybe you were too scared to read me as an open book. Was it that scary? To get to know the emotions that I tamed for you? To get to know that someone was free-falling just to have you? Was it really too much to handle?
I gaze around this time. Re-visiting every tear, covering up every scar and those bruises these old pages give me which still has your redolence in them. I tear them up this time. Why? Because darling that was a phase which was too dark for me to handle. I want to breathe out free. No. It doesn't mean I am letting you go still but I am surely letting go of those phases which have gifted me with achroous scenes which did expire now.
So I let out myself to drench in this early monsoon now. The raindrops heal me as I walk out in iridescent shades of all those memories which are still blissful for me. That way I sniff you again into my system because you happen to be the elixir to me..