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To my Caramel

Let me call you caramel, my bitter sweet caramel


With you, I have discovered the side effects of falling in love

I run out of ideas

I can’t put my thoughts into words

I can’t even concentrate in my writing


Everything about you is blurred

Even US

Oh, wait. There is no us


Just YOU, taking your time laughing at my jokes

Coming to me when you are bored

Running toward me when you are dissatisfied


And there’s ME

Hopelessly waiting for your reply

Fighting the night

Just to get your short reply


There’s me

Wanting your sympathy


And there’s you

Depriving all attention from me


Dear caramel,

My bitter sweet caramel

You take me to an emotional roller coaster

You break me into pieces

Every time you smile and laugh

And whisper words on the computer


I always wait for your reply

Even if it takes hours passed the night

Even if the sun has already risen

I still wait for you

Hoping you can find a space for me

Despite your busy schedule


Sometimes I feel

That I am the only one holding to this dream

"Wake me up!"

A lot of times I'd tell that to myself

But I can’t find the courage to stop myself from adoring you


Yes, adore.

Because I still can’t figure out

How I feel for you

But I know for sure

That it’s something special


Dear caramel,

My bitter sweet caramel

I adore you

But you make me feel blue

You make me fall

You make blush

But you always leave me hanging

You sometimes,

Most of the time,

Make me feel like a trash

Funny because trashes can’t feel

But I do


So I decided I should stop

Because I am losing myself to you

But you already lose yourself to someone else


Dear caramel,

My bitter sweet caramel

You shold know by now why I keep calling you caramel


Good bye for now

If ever you chance upon this

Please note that I fell

You made it seem like you were willing to catch me

But you never did

I guess you never will


Caramel, my bitter sweet caramel

I’m more than just your late night joker

I don’t want to be seen

I want to be felt