Trouble Inside Me.

I sit in the middle of the bed,
With all these thoughts in my head,
The signals are all in red,
Where am I being led?

My head is playing its games again,
Why do I feel all this pain?
Why do I feel like crying once again?
Tell me head, after this what will I gain?

My heart feels like it's being squeezed,
I close my eyes and continously wished,
That maybe I can just disappear,
If all these thoughts won't leave my head and vanished.

I shaked my head as I feel lost,
Today, my life takes a pause,
I wonder how many times I'll find myself like this,
Like this would be a never-ending battle for me.

I took a deep breath and laid in the bed,
Stared at the ceiling as I prayed,
For God to help me see the good in all these instead,
And thought of all other things I have already given.