Dear ______ ,
I am always worried about you
Deep inside this heart of steel
Would always be a father who cares about his child
I always wish your birthdays with laughter
And hope to be with you on a summer
But some wishes don't really come true
And mine were just nothing new.
I might not be by your side
And you've never seen how much I cried
When that one situation broke our happy illusion
Even if I untie the strings or make a cut
There is no solution
I just don't want to see you saddened
Because this heart broke your mom's and yours
Even if everyday you see those broken plates on the floor
Is it wrong if I could ask a little more
I don't want you to hurt that's why
Everyday I chose to lie
I don't want to show you
My melting heart and the monster inside me
I just want you to stay with me.
In the night when I sleep
We were dreamers
Singing our favorite song
And forgotten how much—we took so long
And it would always make me strong
To keep moving on
Even though you're not by my side
I always think if you are happy
And won't be scolded because you are clumsy
I would always try to call you even at midnight
Beer's with me and I would always try to tell you what I did right.
I'm sorry if sometimes I can't tell you the things I must tell you
Because I am afraid you'll hate and leave me too
I don't want to lose the most precious person I only have and that's you.
I have did so many wrongs
I don't want our favorite songs to become sad songs
When in fact it already become one
I don't want to sing lonely songs to you
I'm sorry I told you things I should never do
I wish I could bring back our past
Because that's the only clinging memory we have to last
The most beautiful one
When everything's perfect
And now what have I done.
Love,
Papa