Wake up call

Life is the most precious gift I have ever received from God.

Every morning, I'm always lifting my prayer of gratitude to the Lord, for giving me another chance to live. Every night, I'm praying—giving thanks to Him for the guidance and blessings He has given me all throughout the day and asking for forgiveness for all the wrong things I have done. He is my source of strength.

Lately, I have been feeling mixed emotions—lonely without any reason, easily gets annoyed that leads to anger, scared, etc. I tried to do some research and I found out that I'm experiencing symptoms that are likely resulting to depression. I'm not sure. But maybe... Because I felt lost and it started last year. I had resigned from my job because I was no longer happy with what I was doing. I felt sad because some of my loved ones have past away. I felt confused because my plans didn't work out. I felt afraid for what might others think of me or what would they say to me. I tried to ignore those thoughts but it was like it was slowly consuming me.

I have so many questions in mind: What do I want to do? What should I pursue? Where should I start? How long will I wait or am I just wasting time? Did I make a lot of wrong decisions? What is my purpose in this life?

I'm an optimistic person but I tend to be weak at times. I'm a hopeful person but I have no enough courage or confidence to try some things that will push me out of my comfort zone.

And one starry night, (February 17, 2018, at around 8:30 PM) I was involved in an accident. I was with my female cousin and my nephew. We were riding in a motorcycle—drove by my cousin. We were heading to a carnival. Then, she suddenly accelerated the speed of the motorcycle. Little did I know, she was going to overtake the delivery truck which was infront of us, but a tricycle appeared before our eyes on the left side (we came from the right lane) causing my cousin to slow down a bit. But she lost her control. In a blink of an eye, we found ourselves lying on the road. Luckily, we just fell down and we didn't crash the truck. I have minor injuries on my right knee, hip, elbow and shoulder. Thanks to God for keeping us alive.

I'm not waiting for an accident to happen and I did not think of committing suicide—never.

I will always be forever grateful with my life. But what happened to us is maybe my wake up call.

Life is really unpredictable. We never know what might happen next.

I may have experienced a lot of downfalls but I have been receiving countless chances from above to stand again, try again, dream again...

They say life is what you make it.

So, I'm ready to start all over again. It's going to be hard but I know it will be all worth it. In the right time, everything's gonna make sense.

"I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me." - Phil 4:13

Thank you Lord for the gift of life. 🙏🏻

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