As I went to shopping today
For my Farewell saree
I found this huge sword hanging over my head
With nothing but a little thread
I realised I wanted to look so good
That amidst of all that, I complety forgot who I was
From the nerdy geek, who sings well
To someone who feels the need to seek validation of the fashion police
From an anti-social person
To someone who wants to be complimented by everyone.
From someone who gets so indulged in her life,
That she forgets about even combing her hair
Someone who doesn't even wash her face before an exam
Cause her face is reserved for her books
To this wannabe beauty queen, who wants to dress up
Not because it makes her feel good,
But just so nobody thinks she is a fashion-less anti-social nerd.
That is not who I am.
I am fashion-less because,
I don't find beauty in clothes.
I find beauty in words, so I write
I find beauty in melody, so I sing
I find beauty in people, so I love.
I am not anti-social
But, in between these epitomes of gossip
I wanna be with someone who sees through chaos and drama.
I am not a nerd.
I just know how important books are if you wanna keep your soul from getting rotten.
We always say that we should never be afraid of being who
But we only apply this, on the bigger things in life.
Why don't we say, "Wear the most goddy Saree that you can if that's what you love.
Laugh the most whale-like laugh, if that's how you laugh
Sing like a frog to soothe your mind if you have to.
Love as much as you can, if you want to."
Why are we always talking about the big inhibitions.
The big barriers, the big problems.
When it is these little day-to-day issues that quitely erode us
You're asked to appreciate the insides of people
Take time to do that for yourself too.
If you look ugly, then in that moment, everything you have
Everything you are
Is exactly how you should be loving yourself.
So because I had an exam the other day
I saw 4 Sarees, picked out the one that looked the best
And even though it's a little bit goddy, its my Saree.
Because a fashion-less anti-social nerd,
Is exactly who I am.
And I'm gonna be the best one you'll ever see.
You watch.
~The girl who is not afraid to look ugly anymore.