Everytime I would speak one lie
It is to be with you
Because you are someone special
But everytime I decide
Its fucking crucial
I tell lies to people who treat me like a family
I tell lies to people who trust me
I chose to be with you
Because I know I'd be happy.
Or so I thought
I thought I would be happy when I know from myself I will never not
I try to push things
Keep them in line
Because I hold your words
I trust you
I try to hold things when your words just floated in thin air
I thought you were grabbing the thread on the other side but you've left like a stolen bread
No crumbles left behind
I keep asking myself why
Why would you spill words from your mouth that I thought I can trust?
I try to commit to you when you don't even fucking care about me.
And I
I fail those people
I fail those who truly trust me and set them aside
Made them the second choice
You made me such an idiot
I am such an idiot.
I keep trying to revive a relationship that has already put up a funeral
Already long dead
When in fact there are people who waited me long enough
I saw their smiles turn into frown with confusion
Why did I leave them?
Why I did I choose you? When they are enough to make me happy.
Why do I need to check things if which would make me happier
Why do I chase you when they can wait for me
Why do I even try when you are not even trying
Why did I choose you not them?
I wasted time and time again to be with you
But with them I can have all the time. They are always there.
What a dumb decision I made.
A decision made by a total scum.
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