When two Best friends become strangers 2

Its very hard to digest when two great friends when parted and when one of them keeps thinking about the past injects a coldness deep into the heart.

That is how a girl's mind(mine)  will think right now:

I want my old dude back.. I am missing him for the past 6 months.. One who would share everything with me and the one who wanted me to share everything with him.. I really didn't know what happened between us.. I don't know how he considered our friendship but i considered him as the best version of my friendship.. I had a good friendship with him.. He is the one with whom i was so close and i have not been this closer with anyone else.. And I don't want to be close with anybody in the future.. Because I think this is the greatest hurt i ever had.. I will never get him back again.. I think i lost him.. Thank u for one and a half years of great friendship ..

He is completely a new person to me now..

I don't want him (with tears rolling over my cheeks) .. Everything is temporary.. The one who i wanted to be with lifelong has disappeared. . He had said before once our friendship broken is broken and it will never get back to its origin.. But i tried to mould that.. I wanted us to be together.. But now i realised that it will never be mended anymore.

Why me? Why do all these memories haunt me alone? Doesn't he feel that we are getting apart?? Right now the most cruel thing that had happened to me would be two best friends becoming strangers atlast.. How rude.. I wanted to talk to him all the things disturbing me.. But I do think is it only me who is feeling something odd in our friendship and its not him.. What is the meaning of his friendship?? Is it something being close till he want to and getting drifted apart when he doesn't want to.. I can't understand dude (my friend.. I call him dude) . This is so much new to me.. A very new and a very bad experience.. What did I do that made him not to see me atleast on my last day. He was least bothered to know my last day too.. He should have been the first person to know about my exit day.. He didn't want to put any single effort..

Now its been 9 months and still more to go. But I didn't get a single message from him till now. Two people so close to each other for a year and half but finally becoming strangers is the most dangerous thing that could ever happen. Not only love even a great friendship when parted away could give a lot more heartbreak.