Another sleepless nights. Falling tears of pain. Realizing how much I can never really love without fear.
Fear of falling too hard. Fear of being disappeared to. Will I always be afraid? Will I always wake up hurting?
This feels like drowning, sleepless, restless, dreaming, you're always in my head. I'd rather choke on my bad decisions than carry it on my grave.
Scars won't fade away, but I guess I should get used to this side of myself. Scarred, afraid, broken, lost pieces Would I ever find those pieces? Will I always be this pieceless person?
Am I used to it now? Sudden tears of pain and sadness, scars, sleepless nights, dreamless dreams. Maybe I already am in this whiteless and dreamless night.