The first time when I saw you I was attracted by your charmness like every other girl does when they look at a handsome guy.
You did not do anything like a hero but your simple charm got my eyes.
I made my heart believe that this can't be love at first sight but then now I feel that i have forced my heart to accept it.
Days went by only me looking at u secretly....I never thought I would get a chance to know about you and to speak to you.
I still cherish the first moment of us struggling to start the conversation....those crazy awkward texts....
Now it's been 13 months after our first chat! I can still feel those tiny butterflies around my heart flapping their wings to rise my heart beat whenvever I get a text from you.
Every feeling that I got when I texted you was new....they were all my first time experience and so I wanted me to be your first !
I wanted me to be your first love!
I guess I failed in that....
Someone already gave all those first time feel to your heart and left you with the first wound of love which will last forever in your memory.
Even if you get feelings for me I will be your second....I don't know how to accept that fact....my heart really doesn't want to accept it....but then it aches every minute hiding my true feelings from you!
I really wanted to say u, how much I love u....but suddenly Iam stopped by the thought of being your second love....
Even if I accept that fact, will you have a different feel about me....will I be unique to you.....will I be your everything....will I be the only one?
This first time love is so hard that I can't even stay true to my feelings that I have on u....If at all love was simple I would have expressed my love to you but mine is so difficult that I don't want to express it to you and to be your second!
If you find out my love for you and you have the newest kind of strong love feel for me, then Iam sure we will be united by the Destiny....until then the extrovert soul hidden inside me will keep quite and the introvert in me will be always waiting for ur msges with the same fast pounding heart.
- still in love with you♡