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Please, return to nowhere.


To tell you frankly,

I am incapable of love.

I'm not numb,

Nor ignorant of the feeling whatsoever.

So, unless you give me

Enough reason

To put effort for "us."

Give me endless emotions,

The intensity of every flow,

Of this so-called romance.

Prove to me that you are worthy,

That I am worthy,

For believing that I

Somehow, can love you

The way you love me.

Unless you give me

Enough time to find myself

In darkest parts of my world,

Don't offer your heart

For a person such as I.

Because darling,

Unlike mine,

I won't be able

To take care of it for you.

Don't love someone

Who can't offer his or her heart in return,

Who can't reciprocate

Every piece and every drop

Of his or her tears for you.

You'll be left out

Away from the galaxies,

And would therefore

Turn like me.

Pseudo


Image from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I think the most award-winning

Lie I've ever committed

Was to tell myself that I am very, very happy

With the worst decision

Of having our precious times,

Having our joyful moments,

Having our wonderful days,

Having our love,

Having the idea of us,

Having you

Not forgotten,

But fully erased forever

Not only in my memories,

But also in my life.

And for all of the mistakes

I've made,

This is the one,

That made me learn;

You are the one,

Who taught me

To fool myself

For falling in love

With a complete stranger

Who would later on,

Who would still,

Despite of all

Of the experiences together,

Remain as a stranger.

If I stay


If I stay,

Please tell me that

I am your universe.

Start talking about

The heavenly bodies,

The stars and how they shine,

The planets and how they revolve,

The very fabric of time and space

And how you compare them to me —

Because we need more time;

I need more space.

If I stay,

Please say everything you like

About the way I am.

I need to hear my flaws,

And how should I correct

Each and every mistake I got —

Because I want you to love me

In the most perfect way could be.

If I stay,

Please endure all my pain.

I want you to see my tears,

To hear my cry

Under the pillow

And the midnight sky.

I want you to feel what I feel —

Because I need you...

To understand every detail

Of why I needed to leave you.

If I stay,

There wouldn't be any love

That could prevail between us.

Talk about the cosmos

And the void of space —

That's how cold it is.

Say everything about me,

And show it, don't tell —

But love doesn't seem to exist

In my system anymore.

Endure all the pain,

Feel all the burden,

Yet I am numb.

So if I stay

I WILL stay for you,

But promise me

That one thing's for sure —

You will be

The one

Who's going

To leave me behind.