Dearest Left-hander,
Before, you start thinking, this is not a sad letter. When it comes to you, things are never sad.
Hello.
I stopped writing songs about you, finally. It took me so long, years, 6 years to be exact, to stop dedicating everything to you.
It is not that I got tired of it, it is just that I want to start writing songs for my heart, something I've never done for myself, thinking that writing you one after another completes me.
You made me feel the best feeling, and It is me who thinks you deserved the best songs.
In every song I make, I make sure that there's a piece of you that reminds me of how I fell for you. It is always a one-sided love for me, but I'm not sad about it, although sometimes, I wish you would love me the same way even just for a day.
Thank you for not pitying me and your appreciation is always enough. Thank you for staying as my friend. Thank you for thinking of me, once in a while, which means everything to me, for even once in a while, I mattered to you.
Maybe you're thinking I'm such a fool to spend all those years writing songs about you, but guess why, it made me feel I'm real and alive.
Maybe you don't understand, or you will not understand but that is how for me and my heart.
And maybe, too, I'm not feeling the same feeling right now, and loving only the idea of it, instead, but all those years have given me the courage now to love myself.
Yes, love myself.
I'm not asking for all the love I've spent with you, I know in my heart that is what I really want to do, give you the love I know you deserved.
I'm not asking for anything but for you to keep all the love I've given to you. That will remind me that once in my life, I loved deeply and asked nothing in return.
This is not a goodbye letter but an informative letter stating that:
I will not unlove you but I will love myself more, more than I have loved you, which means, I will let myself be loved not because I desperately need it, but I completely understand someone who feels the same feeling as me.
I will not love someone because I'm tired of you, I've never been tired of you.
I know someone will write you better songs, someone braver than me and will sing it all to you. I wish you'll know the melody when it comes.
And starting now, my songs are not about you anymore. It is about my journey and everything within me.
Thank you and once again, thank you for making me write songs.
Love,
Your Right-hand forever