you see me smiling , hear me bragging
you can see me shinning , hear me laughing
you will only see me hoping
you will only see me working well,
you will see me running around
you will only see me enjoying everything
you can only hear me agreeing on most things
you can only hear me singing,
you can only see me joining the crowd,
you can only see me being silly at all times ,
you can only hear me fooling around
you can only hear me mocking you
you will just know me "rude"
you will just hear me say negative things
you will only hear me picking fights
you will just see me being rusty towards you
you just see the surface
you will just see the other side
the bright side and the tough.
you will only the sides that I allowed you to see
I smile not to hide the pain
Cause pain left me a long time ago ,
I smile to say "I can still carry on"
I smile to say "I still can"
Cause I want you to know I'll always be there
Smiling for you whenever you can't.
I brag not because I am being a narcissist
I brag to make me feel good about myself
Cause I have insecurities , and that no one is there to reassure me
I always feel unworthy and empty
Maybe bragging helps me to build "ME"
i know I might be annoying ,
so at least , just bare with me.
when you feel me hoping ,
it's always been for you
cause we both know , I'm a pessimist
I can only hope , when I'm with you , for you
I'm working well , not to impress you
I'm working well , to divert my anger
Doing my job well helps me to vent out
without hurting anyone
I'll be doing fast and well , to get away from you
by the time you will see me again,
seriously working on something ,
you will know that I'm pissed.
Being pissed by you and myself.
You can see me running around , relentlessly
But now , I grew tired of it.
I'm tired running and doing things for you.
maybe you can't see it.
I'm not even showing it.
I may run around relentless then ,
but now , I'm running away.
You can see me agree with things ,
Caused I learned that I could never win
I will only lost , double. It's all pointless.
You can see me join the crowd ,
but not because I wanted too.
I am joining , to only pay tribute ,
and give respect to their existence , to keep them accompanied for a while
even if it makes me feel "uncomfy" all the time I do
I want you to know that I enjoy solitude ,
and that I seek for it , every time.
I want you to know , that every time that I'm being silly ,
Doesn't really mean that I'm really being silly.
I want you to know that when I'm fooling around
I'm still not really am , fooling around.
this is all manifestation of my untold feelings
I want to confess that , I'm being fake at this moments,
and that I'm searching for something good in you
to change my views.
you will only see the surface ,
you will never know know how much I hold back.
You will never know how much pain I keep on putting aside
you will never measure the grudge I hold inside
No , YOU WON'T.
I'm not blaming you on anything ,
this message is for my dignity
I'll even let you judge ME.
CAUSE YOU WILL ONLY KNOW THE SURFACE.