You know how they keep saying "first love never dies"?
Well, maybe, I guess I still have some feelings or fleeting ones for him
It's kinda difficult to kill it
I just had a dream and he was in it, the person I wanted him to be
...liking me
And yes, totally liking me for real
But it's a dream
Though in my dream, I remember how I feel for that physical person I currently love, that I do love for real, and it's not unrequited now
I was thinking of parallel and another universe, or other universes or worlds, whatever those are
Maybe, in one of those, my first love in this universe and me are together
I don't know what life we could be living now in that
But I remember how I love him, then
For over 7 years I loved him and gave up
Found someone else and fell in love again
I had some passing feelings for others but never really stayed
I can make myself in love at someone but I can't fool myself forever
But this "now" I know, I fell in love again... though to another person
First love? How are you?
I want to ask. I couldn't stalk you in social medias as you're not active much on any of the sites
*Sighs*
Why were you even in my dreams, anyway?
I never thought of you in the past years yet you just pop in and hang out in my dream
Well, am babbling now
I just really want to get this out of my system
I can't kill that first love feeling, anyway but it's just a fleeting random thing...
Uhm, maybe?
Though, it's like a punch to me or something... I really want to be loyal to this current person I am with, to this current person I love
In another lifetime and universe...maybe each one of us can be with someone you can't be in this current one