Lately, I feel worse, exhausted, and hesitant about how I am going. Starting from my purpose in life, career, family life, and even my own life, I feel not so contented. It's not because they are not good but because I am not good enough. I keep trying my best at everything I do, even if my health is being sacrificed.
I sigh when I realize that not everyone appreciates me. Some even nitpick the things I didn't do. I am at fault, but why did you tell it to other people and not to me? If I offended you, let me know. I sigh. Sometimes, I didn't get the people around me.
I have my flaws too. I have a lot of it, but I keep looking at those positive traits of everyone. When they are at fault, I even keep on questioning myself and telling myself that maybe, I am not good enough. I am not good enough to be treated better. I am not good enough to be respected at the same length as others. I am not good enough because I am younger. I am not good enough because I am not enough.
I am sorry. I want to tell you personally, but our division is heaven and earth. I feel so down and neglected, and every effort I exert can't be compared to yours. My actions are drained to waste. Others can be excused, but not me. I feel so bad that I cannot eat well. I felt choked and wanted to cry. I think of the cold wind, and I shiver, but I have to endure the coldness all by myself. That's how I feel today.
With just a mistake, you forgot the smiles we shared. Hence, reality knocks me. Everyone can perfectly function without me. I have never been in the same status as you all.
I feel like garbage.
If you treat me as one, please, throw me away... the SOONEST!