How are you so outgoing and friendly with a huge capacity for life and people?
This amazes me. You amaze me.
I'm fascinated by the way you can go from engagement to engagement without taking a break. And how you never seem to be at a loss for words!
It takes a while to put my thoughts into words. It's scary for me to start speaking without knowing the complete thought I want to express. So I keep quiet more often than not.
I must confess, when i see the ease with which you operate in the world, i'm envious. I'm jealous of how you can move so quickly and accomplish so much.
This world seems to be made for people like you.
I must also apologise. I'm sorry I keep declining your invitations. Please know that when I do so, it's not because I don't like you. ( Could be though) It often pains me to say no to you. I fear that one of these days, i'll have turned you down one too many times and you won't be my friend anymore.
I often find myself wishing that I was more like you. Sometimes I resent my need for being alone. I also wish it didn't take so much effort to get out of the house. (But it's horror)
And yes, i've tried to be more like you. The results were disastrous. But.. I'm learning. Learning that I can appreciate your strengths without needing to possess them. I really do appreciate when you initiate though. Thanks for bearing with me. But I wouldn't want to lose me just so I could keep you. And even if I'm left alone because of a trait that goes to the very core of who I am, I'll live.