"What-ever you do remember; at the end of the day,when you look back, you should smile... you should not regret anything..." was her advice to her little sister.
I do not know how our relationship started, I do not remember. Probably she is a better person to tell you all about that, but what I do remember is that she is the person I wanted to be when I grew up. Not because everyone loves her more, but because she has all the qualities to be loved.
It dawned on me at a very early age that I can never be like her, but that did not stop me from trying until I broke down one day.
I was in standard 12 then and she in college, one late evening I started crying. She was worried, asked me why, but I could not utter a word for awhile. Ultimately, I said I was scared. Scared to end school and enter college. I told her, I was not good enough to do anything (I genuinely believed it for a very long time).
She looked at me and laughed (her laugh confused me but then what she said made a lot of sense), " You do not have to be good at everything silly. You just have to be good at those things you really want to do. And when you find that you will be fine. And why worry about tomorrow, worry about today! and tomorrow will fall in place."
My college years were fine! I used to excel in class; the year I was third, she was dancing with joy, asking treats from Dad ( even I wasn't as happy as she was, thinking it was just another result). But her happiness made me work harder, I stood second next time, she said, " I will wait until you come first!"
And as I graduated I won Gold medal for being the student with best Academics. That day, surely my parents were proud but she was the proudest.
Many ask if we fight or not, we don't. She is not the type to fight with, I just pull her leg all the time (as I am the sarcastic sort). And mostly we never fought because there was never a reason to. She is my biggest supporter and I would be only stupid to loose this gem.
When I was in my teens, we used to have chat sessions away from our mother's eye. We discussed about many things, at that moment we were equal, no one was elder no one younger. During one of those days, I asked her, " How can you always be positive? "
"What-ever you do remember; at the end of the day,when you look back, you should smile... you should not regret anything..." was her advice to her little sister. And I simply followed.
With love,
Sanjukta