When you have a persistent sense of heartbreak and gutwrench, the physical sensations become intolerable and you will do anything to make those feelings disappear. People take drugs to make it disappear, and they cut themselves to make it disappear, and they starve themselves to make it disappear, and that is the saddening reality of this generation.
As you grow older, your perceptions expand.
You evolve.
When you're a loner, you're so preoccupied with your own mind and the depth of it, that you don't look around and see how everyone is horrible to everyone.
But new changes can be experienced even if you still call yourself a loner
As a human, you don’t deal well with emptiness. The pain of emptiness is too strong. It compels the victim to fill that place. That’s why you run from distraction to distraction.
Mental issues leave people paralysed. You'd be surprised to know how many people actually need help and how little help is available to them.
Realisation of when the issue becomes this close to you or when you start caring so much, is hard to notice. But you still want to do something on your level.
One way to do it is, replying. Replying to the messages that you earlier ignored, converting them into deep meaningful conversations and soon enough making out what their issues are.
But there are glitches.
You being a girl, no girl texts. Well, that isn't too bothering because somewhere, girls possess a higher mental IQ and deal with this stuff much better.
But as you start talking to more and more people, you could be made to notice that maybe the guys didn't open up to you because your plan of making them better was working but because, you're pretty.
And that hurts. Making people better becomes a coping mechanism in a way.
If you can make someone else better, you become better too.
You don't expect the world to understand or support you here because it's the most twisted logic of all times.
But you dont expect it to attract the negative attention either.
Mostly the good intentions are misunderstood, that wouldn't make you think twice about helping anyone, but maybe it will make others stop opening up to anyone in general. For this fear of being judged is paramount. And that would be the world reaching an all time low.