Dear Clara,
Take my love dearest doctor bestie. Please read my feelings and try to cure me ( if you can!) . I think I have gone mad.
I don't know what love is. Even for me falling in love, sharing the endearing statements with your lover to express your love, to spend sleepless nights just thinking about someone are nothing more than the waste of somehow of your important time. To hug your lover, to kiss each other are for me, just awkward things. They grant temporary pleasure, but bring more loss to your life!
But still I feel something for someone nowadays . I can't describe the feeling which I just mentioned as 'something'. Yes, I give more importance than usual to all the things done by that 'someone'. When I see his face once, I wait ( or I am forced to be wait by an unseen, unexpressed feeling ) for another day to see the face again. When I hear about him, suddenly the 'i' in me become restless. My mouth hesitates to call his name, however my mind always sounds his name. When I perform any act, I compare myself to him. Sometimes I feel myself very unelligible for him. When I see him, I can't stare at him for long, the reason behind it is nothing but my so-called reputation. But still I feel a strong want to see his face for a long time. When my any article or poem is published in any of the magazines which he uses to read, I read the writings again and again by myself and ask "Will they be liked by him?".
I don't know what's the feeling. But it's different than any other feeling and it's made my life more beautiful but stranger than previous.
After reading it I think you can give me a solution. After all, you are a doctor. By by.... There's nothing more to tell you.
-------With love-------
Your best friend
Ankita