A warm winter

So what was it that got me looking for something or someone everywhere I went ? Was it meant to be this way or is it just another one of those silly dreams I will wake up from ? Now that I look back to the winter it happened I can't even say for sure if it was reality because that's how it felt , too good to be true in this gloomy world of lies and false hopes . A warm memory from an otherwise cold life I had till then .

Will I ever meet her again ? Will I ever feel what I felt or will I stop looking...stop walking the paths I walked with her in hopes of meeting her one more time , stop looking out of my window every time someone passes by in hopes of seeing a warm smile greeting me , passing on the warmth into me . It's really hard to return back to the coldness I was used to earlier now that I have felt how good the warmth feels . I will be craving for it - that feeling of being alive , that feeling of being with her .

As the bright Spring time sunlight lit my face I wondered why do the seasons fade away ? Why did she fade away with the winter as the attires shifted from Jackets to T-shirts ? Will she come back with the next winter ? All I have is questions and hope and all I ask for is one more chance to meet her again to tell her how I feel . To tell her that I felt warm with her , That as she was fading away I wanted her to stay .... stay with me for just a little more . 

Is a little more enough time ? Time was something I never considered while I wasted my life in the falsehood of the world but now I know . Now I know that there will never be enough time . The time will go on and so will the world and the seasons along with it but me ? I will be here ...with my eyes searching for hers .