It seems like a habit to you
You make me a part of your life
You are used to hold my hand every morning to check if I left
You always ask if I already have my meal
You always reserved seats and spaces for me
Believe me, I appreciated it
I really do appreciate it.
I kind a like the care you've given me
But I didn't know we'll make it this far
I didn't know that I'll be attached to you
It will hurt me
But between us, you're the one who will hurt more
It's hard for me, too
Goodbyes are sad
But it being the last is sadder
I know you'll suffer
But so do I
Don't get me wrong
You mean everything to me
It's just that this darkness
This darkness is calling me
Telling me to come back home
I remember you calling me an angel
But it's not it
I'm sorry.
I don't want to loose you know
Not now.
I loose my control
And you're the one who can handle me.
But leaving you is not my choice
And it will never be
It's not me who want me to go
It's them, asking me to come.
I'm sorry for not being the angel you see
I'm sorry for disappointing you
I know it will be hard to put back the light in your eyes
I know it will be hard for you to smile again
But I'm suffering too.
I want to be selfish.
Believe me, It's not me who will hurt you
It's not me who will steal your bliss
It's not my decision to go.
I really have to go.
I hope I made you feel loved.