I keep on asking myself "why do I feel alone even when I'm with people?"
Why do I feel like sitting in the corner and just stare into emptiness,thinking why am I like this? Why does this happen to me? Why do I feel like saying fuck it and fuck you to everything and everyone and just go to a place where there is nothing but silence ... I guess he's my real friend, silence who listens to what I say and doesn't say anything ... Why don't I have people who just listen and don't say anything...... Or I have them and I just keep on going to the wrong person again and again.. why do I keep on doing this even when I know I'm doing wrong.People say that they are there for me but they don't do what they preach. I guess I feel alone because of that one person who i want to talk to,who I hope will be there isn't there. That person doesn't even know what I feel inside when they're not there.that person has made me feel what i haven't felt before. I still open up our chat look at it hoping that 'online' turns into 'typing'. But I think that's my problem I expect too much from people and end up being the one who feels down.Well I am trying to change but I don't think it's that easy.
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