Beginning or end
The story begins when we were talking me and dad about death
me : Dad How do I know how I was going to die?
dad affected by all: death is not known, it is suddenly come from prescience no one knows except God.And I think I was going to die soon going to die by the father (who is grandfather)
mother replied sarcastically to dad : Does your father know this death? Enough him.
dad responded nervously :haraam allah lengthens the old.
Then ended up talking and we went to sleep
And in the evening mother wake up on a dream or a voice whispering in her ear Awake "your husband's father died"
she looked and is frightened to its side did not find one! started searching for a mobile phone and found him in the hall and found clock 2:00 am
she thought it was just a dream
And is on its way to the room, my brother and she found a very high knock on the door and screaming from my aunt (my father die)
mother was shocked and scared and ran to our rooms for our guard to do anything we went quickly to Grandfather
And shocked scene
My grandfather is dying and issued strange sounds
My aunt screaming and crying: does not my father Stay with us!
And the other read the Qur'an
And said mother certification
My aunt's daughter scream (No, my Grandfather do not let me here Alone)
And a pair of my aunt measure his blood pressure and fall cursor to zero
Then assigns his hand to the wall and cries
Says my aunt: does not my father did not die that it coma and then yells at her aunt and other Shut up pair claimed his mercy and forgiveness
I supported my back to the wall Do not ingest situation what happens here's why my grandfather silent does not speak like yesterday to Amama does not move or laugh with me like yesterday I kept Laugh what do and I'm in a daze and then rushed to clean house and clean the serious and before the arrival of delegations from loving grandfather
And comes the morning and we did not sleep well yesterday and I went to look at my grandfather and I found it covered with fabrics scared and removed them and kiss him warmly as if I kept over the years without to see him defeated and grew to sleep beside my mother came and is frightened Maryam, what are you doing here
I said: Why sleep.
took me speeding on the part of a grandfather and put him fabrics
I woke up and remained family and my grandfather came to the place was filled with crying and I'm still not absorbed
Vokrzina uncle of the room to the outside to come to my grandfather Sheikh and wash it and attended the burial
I went out and stood in front of the room almost two hours and then We brought uncle to bid farewell to my grandfather
I'm starting to see where he is? Where my grandfather?
and say: Here is in front of you
I: Why is this just a roll of cloth
uncle: inside your grandfather?
I: What Is are you kidding will suffocate
uncle hit me on my face: Awake has died grandfather died !died! died!!
I do not what do you say?
uncle: tell the truth grandfather died
I sped toward the cloth and I cry referred to the man on the place where I kiss
kiss him simply overflowed and the Sea of tears from my eyes I kept crying and crying it I knew I would not see him again and started talking with him, my Grandfather Do not go without me Stay Take me with you or go with you giggle and joyous Grandpa Please, does not leave me here, I am sorry that I was does not sad me kept never leave and I cry and go from my eyes do not dry Sea
and i went out the room i'm shocked
And went out of the room and I collapsed from crying
When my grandfather pulled down to peace lost my balance and fell to the ground
And we went to the cemetery and found all of my friends there miss them desperately body Grandfather came down and stayed with him the joy and life
Do you know how much my grandfather, my family have been displaced because of death, you know!
بدايه ام نهايه
تبدا القصه عندما كنا نتحدث انا و ابى عن الموت
انا : ابى كيف اعرف كيف اننى سأموت
رد ابى بكل تاثر : الموت لا يعرف فانه ياتى فجاه هو من علم الغيب لا يعلمه الا الله
و اظن اننى سأموت قريبا سأموت قبل ابى (الذى هو جدى)
ردت امى بكل سخريه : هل ابوك هذا يعرف الموت ؟ كفايه عليه
رد ابى بعصبيه : حرام ربنا يطول فى عمره
ثم انتهى الحديث و دخلنا لننام
و فى المساء تستيقظ امى على حلم او صوت يهمس فى اذنها استيقظى والد زوجك مات
نظرت و هى مفزوعه الى جانبها لم تجد احد فبحثت عن الهاتف المحمول و جدته فى الصاله ووجدت الساعه 2:٠٠صباحا
اعتقدت انه مجرد حلم
و هى فى طريقها لغرفة اخى وجدت طرق عالى جدا على الباب و صراخ من عمتى (ابويا يموت )
فزعت امى و انصدمت و اسرعت الى غرفنا لتيقظنا لنفعل اى شئ توجهنا بسرعه الى جدى
و صدمت بالمشهد
جدى يحتضر و يصدر اصوات غريبه
عمتى تصرخ و تبكى لا يا ابى ابقى معنا
و الاخرى تقرا القران
و امى تنطقه الشهاده
ابنة عمتى تصرخ( لا يا جدى لا تدعنى هنا وحدى)
و زوج عمتى يقيس له ضغط الدم فيسقط المؤشر الى صفر
ثم يسند يده الى الحائط و يبكى
فتقول عمتى لا ابى لم يمت انها غيبوبه ثم يصرخ فى و جهها زوج عمتى الاخرى اخرسى ادعي له بالرحمه و المغفره
وانا سانده ظهرى الى الحائط لا استوعب الوضع ماذا يحدث هنا لماذا جدى صامت لا يتكلم مثل امس لاماذا لا يتحرك او يضحك معى مثل امس فظللت اضحك على ما يفعلوه و انا فى حالة ذهول ثم نسرع لتنظيف البيت و تنظيف جدى وقبل وصول الوفود من المحبين لجدى ليودعوه و لاداء و اجب العزاء
و ياتى الصباح و نحن لم ننام جيدا بالامس و انا ذهبت لالقى نظره على جدى فوجدته مغطى بالاقمشه فزعت و ازلتها و ظللت اقبله بحراره كأنى مر على سنين بدون ان اراه و غلب على النوم فنمت بجانبه اتت امى و هى مفزوعه مريم ماذا تفعل هنا
قلت : ماذا نائمه
فحملتنى مسرعه من جانب جدى ووضعت الاقمشه عليه
و استيقظت بقى العائله و اتت الى جدى فامتلا المكان بالبكاء و انا مازلت غير مستوعبه
فاخرجنا عمى من الغرفه الى الخارج لياتى الشيخ الى جدى و يغسله و يحضره للدفن
فخرجت و ووقفت امام الغرفه ساعتان تقريبا ثم احضرنا عمى لوداع جدى
انا بدات انظر اين هو ؟ اين جدى ؟
و عمى يقول : ها هو امامك
انا : ماذا هذه مجرد لفه من القماش
عمى : جدك بداخله؟
انا : ماذا هل تمزحون سوف يختنق
عمى ضربنى على وجهى :استيقظى لقد توفى جدك مات مات مات
انا لا ماذا تقول ؟
عمى : اقول الحقيقه جدك مات
انا اسرعت نحو القماش و انا ابكى فاشار الى الرجل على المكان الذى اقبله فيه
فقبلته ببساطه و فاض بحر الدموع من عيونى ظللت ابكى و ابكى عليه علمت اننى لن اراه ثانية و بدات اتحدث معه يا جدى لا تذهب بدونى ابقى او خذنى معك ستذهب معك الضحكه و الفرحه يا جدى لا تتركنى هنا ارجوك انا اسفه ان كنت حزين منى ابقى لا ترحل و انا ابكى و انزل من عينى بحر لا يجف
وخرجت من الغرفه و انا منهاره من البكاء
و عندما انزلوا جدى الى السلم فقدت توازنى و سقطت ارضا
و ذهبنا الى المدافن ووجدت كل احبائى هناك من افتقدهم بشده نزل جثمان جدى و نزلت معه الفرحه و الحياه
هل تعلم يا جدى كم عائله تشردت بسبب رحيلك هل تعلم !؟