I must be dumb for believing all those lies. I should have known from the start you had someone else in mind. Now I'm lost in my own book, stuck between the chapters. You used my pain to get some laughter. Why didn't you tell me the way you really felt from the beginning? Or that you didn't feel the same?
Now the only thing in my mind is to cause people pain, release all my anger. I put up with this for way too long. I try to do things right but nothing works well with me. Please stop pretending and act like you know how I feel. Everything you've said lately has been unreal. If you want to know, look in my heart, you'll be surprised at what you will find. A bunch of doors that are not in line. Some are damaged, crooked, and some are crazy designed. Twisted and tied, because this whole thing has been a lie.
They told me that you were not good for me but I did not believe them until that day, the day which I felt confused, mad and so many other emotions, I just needed to talk to you about it but you caused that to happen the pain, the ache in my heart everything. How can you hurt the only person trusted you? Are you that heartless? That is the worst feeling anyone could go through, being used and lied to by the person you trusted the most.
Sometimes you just have to be your own hero to save your heart from everything around you, which may leave scars forever. Occasionally, those who you thought would never hurt you or leave you will be the first people to walk right out of your life. I won't keep calling you anymore. Worrying for nothing and waiting for something. I won't be doing all of that again. I won't be searching for you hoping you'll be waiting for me. I won't be running away from you wondering if you'll chase after me. I won't be doing those again. I won't worry anymore because worry hurts more than anything.
Since then your cold-heart won't be killing my inside any longer. I thought you deserved my heart but you were the one whom broke it. When you love someone, you give everything without thinking twice, deny the truth, believe the lies and do crazy things that you can’t explain. You said you loved me, but you lied. You said you would never hurt me, but you did.
Actually, you know what I don’t regret loving you, I don’t regret trusting you, I regret that I gave you the power to hurt me. It feels like that I wasn't good enough for you which hurt more. I wish I could tell you all that but I can’t, you shut all the doors on me, and I might do that to you, I might let you feel the pain I felt. Karma is a bitch and that day will come and you will regret everything.