Did you ever wonder why I chose him?
Not because he's handsome or rich or something
but because he showed he cared for me more than anything
after all the traumas I've been suffering
He helped heal the lines on my wrist.
and now I'm breaking, again
And I'm breaking because I'm breaking up with him
The him who showed that god is true
The him who accepted the cold room inside my Ice heart
The him who showed me that I'm worth saving
The him I'm in love with but I'm breaking up with
And now in this dark room, I'm back again
The agony and pain of seeing a tomorrow without him
My curtains are shut, and darkness envelops this room
the shear fear of judgment and being alone will be back.
But I hope that he knows I'm doing what's best for him
And if they think they're doing what's best for me, they aren't
because everyday I'll wake up but still asleep
everyday I'll move like I'm living but I already died.
And if having a daughter who's dead inside is what they want to live with.
Then, I'm giving them what they're asking for.
I'm going to live like a robot.
I'm going to wake up every morning without having the thoughts faking a smile because nobody would see again.
And the only reason that I'll be waking up is because I'll be looking forward to getting out of their life.
to this life
The life I never wanted.