Why, I still don't have the courage
to be genuinely happy this Christmas.
It's been four Christmas now, &
I still feel miserable.
I can't seem to get use of spending Christmas this way.
By this way, I mean, having no Mom.
No noche buena.
Longing heart, empty soul.
When, when will I be able to escape
from this nightmare.
It' lonesome, but for someone like me,
It's like my safe haven.