Heart beat..
Flustered..
Am I in love? But why do I feel lonely?
I am satisfied but in doubt.
I mean the things I did say
However I didn't get the answer I wanted to hear.
I can't say the words that I want you to say.
However I am just stating what is real.
I am broken thats not a lie,
I can't be happy thats my sin,
I can give myself thats fated,
However my heart is not setttled.
Promises and dreams are just passing by,
What lies beneath my resolve is the unforgiven soul.
I cannot have the happiness I felt right now.
I want this but I can't.
So I can't lock the chain in my hand.
Im your holding yours but you can hold other hands.
This my consent I can't unbind.
I am well aware the confusion you are going through.
The more you want to understand will only mess what we have right now.
Don't ask just be there.
I will not blame anyone but myself.
Somehow someday I know you will.
Your heart will waver and by that I will understand.
I know you won't say but it shows anyway.
Things I know shall remain hidden inside me.
Because just like what people say.
I don't know how it always work that when escaping..
All you need to say is that the problem..
Its not you but it is me.