I lied...
I wanted you to leave..
I lied...
I wasn't hurting if you will find someone..
I lied...
I told our friends I have someone else..
I tried but I can't.
I can't say yes to someone, if I'm hurting that much thinking about you.
I wanted you to be mine, mine alone.
I want you to be always with me.
I'm selfish I know but what do I do with this feeling?
I have write so many things to make myself hate you. So I can walk away from this feeling.
I am hurting at the same time I am happy and I don't understand the way I am being in love with you.
Whenever you did things without me knowing or choosing other things over me. I keep...
I keep thinking things I am afraid to happen, so I tried to pull back afraid to be hurt again.
But you always knocked at my door everytime I am giving up.
In that way I have love you more that I don't know if there is a way left for me to escape this.
I have said things that hurt you and I'm hurting just the same or hurting even more.
I don't know how to pay you of all the good things you have done for me.
But one thing is for sure you already owned my heart and soul. And even I am hurting and angry this me will always open that door everytime you knock.
And I hate you for that... Why do I love you this much?
I have so many flaws. But you still wanted me.
I always push you away but you stayed.
Babe? Will you stay forever? If not please tell me sooner.
I don't want to go crazy when the time you will say you leave and I can no longer let you leave.
Will you always be?
I love you, always.
But always don't mean always.