"All colors in the next life...gleam so brilliantly that colors in this world cannot be compared to them. There are also colors that have never been seen in the world.”
I wondered how beautiful life is!!!! God has really taken a lot of pain and time in making this world so captivating. But it is we the crazy foolish people who crave for more and more. We have become the Happy Destroyers.
I asked God once in my Dreams, "How can you be so patient with your children?" Just guess , what could have been his answer?
Well, I kept racking my brains in and out, tried to figure out all the possibilities, combinations and permutations. But alas nothing clicked at the right moment !!!
I felt very frustrated at that time just the same way when I found that my article didn't publish in the Daily. I felt as if I have lost my mind. But then a warm pat on my back brought me back to my senses.
On looking back, there was Noone. Shivers ran down into my spine. A voice echoed in my ears telling me "Shomi, c'mon you can do it." When I tried to figure out the speaker, I just could gather an aromatic, thin, chilly air hovering around myself as if I am caught amidst a Twister. .....
A twister ah.... you heard it right. A strong wind in which one gets washed away. My thoughts were eroded by that whistling air.I hugged myself harder, clutched my arms in my pullover. Suddenly I felt as if someone was trying to sneak through my windows. The white curtains were dancing in their own tunes. Today when I actually looked around in that white four walled room, I realized that it was so gloomy sans colours sans vibrance. Everything seemed bland and expressionless. How did I elapse three long years in this blank faced room was the question which was hovering in my mind......Alas I just had no answer to it!!!!
I went down the memory lanes and tried to dig my past just to find few valuables but concluded that I never gave that "ME time" to myself.
I used to be so busy with my work home and my family that I never thought of giving that quality time to MYSELF, to bring out that real self.
Just the other day, I asked one of my students regarding her passion. She gave beautiful picture of it in the form of a painting which spelt Her inner heart feelings.
At this point I realized that I have a passion for writing and music gives solace to both my heart and soul. The eyes which longed for me to humm that same tune of 'Rimjhim Rimjhim' song from the movie 1942, a love story is still afresh in my mind. Now that I have started walking into the steps shown by Him, I have started loving Myself.
Well... at times the situations make us feel helpless and at their disposal. This made me feel uncomfortable quite a number of times. The struggle for the survival for the best kept making me stronger all the time. My better half's belief in ME and my capabilities has helped me to rise and reach where I am today.
I still have to climb high up to reach at the top and see the world but the initial baby steps brought the faith in myself that YES.... I have it in me.
I revamped my room and added colours as much as possible, reshaped my life.
Life is colourful and a fantastic gift of God which is to be cherished and not wasted at all.
That night I heard no more sounds but yes at times miss his warmth. All my awards are for your sole belief in ME that I can do it and can be the best.
To that pious soul....... I know you are watching me.
My reflection is showing me that you are around me and with ME only.....Oh how I missed being with you!!!!!
That soul went back into its own world leaving his footsteps behind in the sands of time.