It was in our school , i was playing basketball with my fiends and he was doing the same thing , the teacher told us to play together he was charmant but his was also mean and rude with other people so i really didn't care about him , and he didn't care about me to .
Days and months past after that day , i was in my classroom talking to my friend i looked at the door , i founded that guy looking at me with his friends i didn't believe it in the first time but after some days i maked sure of it and i knew that this guy likes me .
After watching him talking and laughing and watching his moves i accely liked him to and i thought that he was quiet and cute .
first talk
i met him at the showroom in our school , he was sitting behind me and next to him my collegue i turned to him-my collegue- and i asked him about homework he said that he forget about them and then that guy talked to me for the first time he said: do you want to copie my homework it's not really good but it's helpful ? i said: okey i'll see ? i toke them and they was helpful and also good i said : thank you . He said : you welcome. and he goes to his classroom
silence
i was a good student so the teachers of french and arabe makes me correct the copies of examens with my ennemi , a girl who pretended that she's an angel but she's a devil , anyway i met him a lot because i assissted to his sciences while i'm correcting examens copies he look at me i look at him he doesn't say a word and me to .
embarrassing moment
One day while i'm correcting copies with my ennemi , Arman that guy taked a paper wrote something on it and throw it to his friend the paper runed into my ennemi and of course she didn't hesitated and she toke it to the teacher , the teacher thought that Arman throw it on my ennemie Nina ,and she was very mad because Nina was the daughter of her sister and she punished Arman in front of everybody.
Arman was so embarrassing , i knew that in that moment Arman wanted to cry wanted to get out of that classroom but he stayed and acted like he's okey but i'm sure that he was not okey .
the last day
His class and my class were toghether in the same classroom ,he was sitting so close to me but nothing was happend he didn't say a word and me to , that day was the last day of school and then summer vacation comes after.
Summer vacation is so long i can't wait til the next year , what should i do?
i can't make the first move ,i can't do anything i'm gonna wait til the next year .
back to school
After summer school came again it was the first summer i loved it was so full of surprises and funnymoments , anyway at the first day i met Arman he was so beautiful i didn't knew him, he looks at me but i ingored him , days past and every day i liked him more and more , when i was younger i thought that relationships are just for fun i ask the guy that likes me if he love me every one of course they say yes and i say me to but i've never loved someone accely i found that they are so stupid and i play with there hearts i make them jealous and angry and then simply i break up with them and nothing change about me they beg me to come back they try but it doesn't work . i thought that this is gonna work with Arman to ,but i was so wrong .
confession
Days past and Arman is just looking at me without saying a word , i wanted to play with the heart of Arman like the others and make some fun of him and also have some sweet moments with him and then break up with him .
One day while i study my colleague tell's me that a boy name's Chris loves me , and that guy was with Arman in the same class , i saw him , he looks weird i didn't liked him so i ignored him .
Chris was one of my friend's on facebook -i really didn't knew it before
he talked to me- anyway i was talking with my bff on facebook and he said: hi .
i said : hi to .
- i know that you love Arman.Chris said.
- what? Arman ?
- yes, you looked at him all the time .
-really i don't know what are you talking about ?
-okey let us continue this conversation at school.
-okey see you.
I met chris in shcool he pretended that he doesn't know me , but i stoped him when i said : are you Chris ?
- yes i'am Chris can we met after school?
- yeah of course.
I waited him for un hour outside , he came to me the way he talked is very weird he tell 's me that he's gonna call Arman i said :noo . and he called him ,when i saw Arman coming i runed away.
The next day Arman came to me and asked me about an examen and itold him that i want to talk to him , he said :okey meet me after school.
I met him, the first thing i said without even thinking about is: would like to be on a relation ship and he said : i don't know .
Oh my god it was the first time ever that i heard that answer my closed lips was surprised . he continue: you know chris is my friend and he loves you and...
me: call him
Chris : hi what's up
me:Chris i'm sorry okey i can't be with you because i don't love you, i apologize if that make's you feel bad , we can be friend's .
Chris : it's okey.
Then i turned to Arman and said : now you know that your friend is okey what do you say ?
Arman : i'm gonna answer you on facebook.
me : okey
falling in love
For the first time ever i felt like someone doesn't care about me that much, Arman was very different , anyway on fb he said that he wanna be my friend and then if he likes me then probably he will be my boyfriend.
We met a few times at the school library , i liked everything in Arman the way he talk the way he smile he was angelic, quiet , and lovely, i guess i falled in love with him .It was the first time ever that i loved someone i didn't realize that love could be like this ,it's like i've never seen the sky before it's fresh and spiritual , every time i met him i felt like butterflies are flying in my ventral , and like i'm in a sweet dream.
I told Arman that i loved him and he told me that he loves me to ,i was happy to knew it what makes me loves him more.
the break up
Once i met Arman at the library , and there was his friend's they knew about our relation ship so they just tried to bother us, we didn't take care first but everyone hated that relation because we were just completly happy and comfortable, so they tried to part us , Edd was the son of our arabic teacher and of course he told her about us
The teacher told me that i was different in this last days and that she know everything, she told me to come back to the old Ellie - my name is Ellie-or she's gonna tell my parent's , i don't have a choice she wanted me to break up with him
so i found an exuse and i tried to break up with him but he said that he doesn't want so i stayed because i loved him, i met him and i told him that our teacher knew about us and he was just confused and he wanted to go .
another face
the next day i met Arman in school, he didn't look at me so i thought that he didn't saw me , but i was wrong , when i came back to home i found a new message from him when i read it , i cried so much, i was shocked he said that he love me so much but he can't be with me anymore,i felt like a million knifes cut my heart .
I asked him why did he wanna break up me and he just said that he hated me and he was just playing with my feelings , in that moment i wanted to kill Arman and then kill my self , that guy who talked to me on face book was the real Arman , the other Arman that i met in school,was just an actor.
heart broken
When i broke up with Arman honestly i couldn't breath ,i couldn't speak or even eat for a lot of days , i just listen to the sad love songs and cry every single day and that was really hard and the most harder that i met him in school and he pretend that he don't know me and he pulled his face away from me, i was so miserable for few months but i always act like i'm so happy and every one beleive it -i'm a good actrice to- cause no one know me very very deeply no one .
Missing you
Arman i can't count how many times i tried to get over you , but it doesn't work , you are my other half ,i missed you so much you know that you were the only one i loved , my fist one ,you read my feelings and my ideas and me to ,even if you hurt me so bad i forgive because you are my everything, there is no reason to live without you , do you know before i met you i was looking for a reason to live and then i found you , but i lost you again , please Arman come back , so i can be alive again.