I want to go back to the old me while keeping the heart that I have now.
My emotions grew stronger but my thinking and conviction were altered. I am not blaming anyone though.
I just want to confess that I am not okay. I don't know what's exactly happening. I am not okay. No, this is not depression. I am happy.. but not okay.
This year has been good and bad to me. It has been a combination of destruction and renovation.
These past few weeks, I cry myself to sleep. I skipped classes and did not take quizzes. My competitiveness faded away. I don't learn anymore. I do things for compromise.. which is not me at all.
I've changed.
Did I become better or worse? That, I don't know.
I just want to go back... yet still hold the things that I have now.
I want to pick up my pieces that were lost.
I want to go back.
But I don't know how.
Do you?