Us was never true
Us was with no clue
Indeed, there never was
A story of us
You came into my life
To slaughter my heart with a knife
You made me believe in destiny
But you let me drown in agony
I wished I had the strength
To forget you till time's length
But I love you more and more
I'll still wait for you at my door
I want to move on
But the pain will exceed to another ton
I can't stop loving
Someone who is capable of leaving
I can't stop leaving
Someone who is worth loving
Someone who loves another
Someone who will shoulder a boulder
To cross one's border
Unfortunately, that border isn't mine
Someone like you will never cross a line
For someone like me even if I waited long
Cause that is nature's call, a heartbreaking song
Some learn to love those who never love them back
Some learn to ignore those who always knock
Sometimes, they are too blind to even notice it
But not noticing it makes them live another bit
Coz it makes them realize that the pain they suffer
Can even make them stronger
Pain isn't really that hurtful
It can also be helpful
If loving you is prolonged pestilence
Then I find my own permanence
I know you're not for me
I know we can never be
Loving you is what makes me me
Letting you go is the reality I don't want to see
So I choose to think of you
Like stranded thoughts stuck like glue
The puzzle of you will always be inside my head
And I won't let u know from bloodshed to deathbed
I'll just pretend that it's over in the outside
Even if the inside and the outside still collide
Outside my mind, you are no longer a guillotine
Inside my head, you'll remain a clandestine
Surely, you'll never know
That you still are the bow to my arrow
Sadly, you'll never know
how far this will go
Inside of me, you're but a destruction
Coz I can never feel your love even in a small fraction
I just keep you there to unlock my fear
My fear of just wiping you off with a tear
You can never beg me to unchain you
Coz you are free to explore something new
Something you never knew
Something you'll never share to a few
You, dominating my innerness, are nothing but a vibration
Speechless and soul-less, a light mem'ry in motion
But even if you're no longer flesh and blood
I'll still cherish you like the best love I never had
This I promise you,
This I say without starting anew