one thing I haven't learnt about my heart till date is what exactly it wants.......
why does it keeps wandering in the streets which could never turn home? why even after so many years of separation it still cares for him, he who never cared ? why it still prays well for him? why it even bothers whether he lives or die?
one day it says he hates him....actually makes me believe it was just in vain. and the next day asks if it was even real.....him leaving...me breaking......
even after so much has been said and done, why does it, my heart, still lingers to get him back. Him, whom I pleaded never to leave my side, left besides being aware of my heart not able to beat without him......
why does it happens that one thing which left you shattered and smashed, to mourn amidst the debris, is the only thing you yearn wholeheartedly to get back to?
why does it pretend that everything will fall back right, even when it knows that once gone is gone?
why to fool yourself when you know the truth right away?
even when, at this very moment, when this stupid heart of mine is debating what is wrong and what is right, somewhere deep at corner of it, it still thinks of him................ him, who has made my world fall apart......mentally, physically, wholeheartedly .....